42: A Journey Inward

For me it’s very clear. Our life as we know it, as humans on this planet, will never be the same again. My journey with this experience has been an inward one. It’s like somebody pulled a socket out of my brain and hit the reboot button.

So far the reset has been mostly pleasant. I can hear my inner voice for the first time in years, and more importantly the crisis has me fully present.

On the darker side, I have daily fears about money, work, and loved ones due to this crisis. It feels like a waking nightmare. I have started to lose track of what day it is, they just blend together. There is so much anxiety on social media I have had to stop using it. Fear fear fear. That’s all it is. I know it and seek to conquer that every day.

There are some really overwhelming moments, but then I hug my wife and pull my puppy closer. I give gratitude for their love. I call my father or speak to other family members and share a laugh. I rebound for a while. Then the next day comes and the battle in my mind starts again...